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The miscellaneous posts I don’t feel right filing under another category.

Blaring.

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Theres a cold going around school and I don’t think I’ve cought it, but I certainly don’t have all the energy I might.  I also feel just a tinge queasy every now and then, but nothing more than a ghost of the feeling really.  I also forgot to drink as much water today as I should.  Anyways that all is just an explanation that you should take this post with much salt.  I am feeling persnikity and have a headache right now so some things finally got on my nerves.  Primarily:  Please stop assuming I am incompetent at a task just because I’m white!!! 

When someone gets inside my personal space and stays there to watch me complete a task, trying to grab it out of my hand or gesture at it/touch it, I get really tense and uncomfortable.  People at school keep assuming I don’t know what I’m doing, and even after I assure them I am know perfectly well how to do whatever it is many times and push or shoo them away they still hover uncomfortably close and take it away from my or try to do it for me etc.  They hover there, unblinkingly watching my work just waiting for me to take a second too long for one piece of it or generally prove my complete and utter incompetence to them once and for all with a slight miss-step so that they can swoop in and do it right. 

Now I know that outside of my headachy little bubble of no-reason, what is acctually happening is that they see me try to figure things that I don’t know out on my own and push them away in a similar fashion, and so they wait to see if I actually do need help (by watching intently of course which is completely normal), and then try to help me if it seems that I do.  Please don’t.  I am VERY good at asking for help when I need it, and even if I don’t know know exactlly what I am doing I generally like to try to figure it out myself if I can.  I learn much better that way.  Also, when there are five or more people crowded around me watching, I sure as heck am going to mess up, even if it is the easiest thing in the world for me.  And if you go leave crowding me to come back later and see how I’ve fared, which is completely reasonable, I probably still won’t be able to do it because now my head hurts and I am extremely anxious.  Case and point: Sewing.  Math.  And doing up my shoes. 

So to everyone at my school who is reading this, including if any of you are teachers, I will ask for help if I need it.  Either with my words or by wearing an exagerated expression of confusion and gesturing with whatever I am doing and showing you what part I understand, and where I get lost.  Please don’t help me if I ask you not too.  Thank you.

P.S. The other thing is that if I am not understanding you (probably because your sentances are just nouns and I have no way of guessing what the connection is between them – do you mean “this not that”?  Or “when this always that”?) please do not repeat the exact same thing over more than 3 or 4 times. 

Beautiful (a just for fun post, not really insightful into my journey)

Little things, Other

Today we went to the store to buy pokey.  I got 7 different flavours: strawberry, strawberry with real strawberry, green tea, cookies and cream, chocolate and roasted peanut, blueberry with real blueberry, and “cream flavour biscuit roll” which is like inside out squished pokey.  All these together?  The 7 boxes cost less than one box would in Canada.

Now let me go into way more detail on these pokey than I need to.

The normal strawberry is what I would usually get, and is good.  It was my favorite.  It tastes like strawberry cream filling but a bit muted.  It gets a 6.5-7/10.  The strawberry with bit of real strawberry is very similar except that the strawberry tastes stronger and just a tinge sour, like many real strawberry’s tend to.  It gets an 8/10.  The green tea pokey tastes like Thai milk tea, and it is good, but not what I’m looking for in pokey.  It’s not nearly as sweet as the others and the texture stands out more.  The cookies in cream is very good, but I’ve had some really good ice cream that has kind of spoiled me in terms of cookie and cream flavoured things.  7/10.  The chocolate peanut is fantastic, but I’m not a huge fan of chocolate and peanut together personally.  For other people who aren’t crazy like me, 9/10.  On to…. the blueberry.  Ahh the blueberry.  This one is my favorite, it you hadn’t guessed.  It tastes like the sweet blueberry part of a blueberry muffin.  10/10.